I’m breaking free from my cocoon.

To emerge from the cocoon, a butterfly swallows some air, its body expands as the air moves into the digestive tract, the cocoon splits open along a line of weakness, and the butterfly is free. For me, it sure seems to take a little more effort than the than swallowing a little air, but still, it’s happening.

I have been in survival mode lately.

I slipped into it after our entire family was sick for one reason or another for almost two months straight. At the same time, I was hitting the second half of my first trimester of pregnancy (we are expecting a baby in July!), and it was tough. Besides the constant nauseousness, I was plagued with a dark cloud of negativity that I have not experienced in any other pregnancy. I was not myself. I was counting the minutes till bedtime, not enjoying my jobs and responsibilities, and struggling with a lack of motivation and strained relationships. Thankfully, a friend of mine went through the same thing, which was a comfort to me. It reminded me of who I am, and that this negativity was just hormones; not someone I was turning into.

As I am making my way out of it, I want to encourage you if you are in this place too. Remember:

We’ve all been in survival mode at some point or another.

  • Survival mode IS NOT WHO YOU ARE.
  • Fight the feelings of self-condemnation for not being your normal self while you’re there.
  • You are loved! Even if you aren’t feeling it, remember that it’s true.
  • This will not last forever. Trust God there is a way out, ask for wisdom, and He will show it to you.

But eventually, the butterfly has to break free.

You can’t live in survival mode. It’s not good to regularly spend time there, or to constantly go back and forth.

Here are some things that helped me come out of it.

Maybe they can help you too.

  1. Get organized, clean something, and force myself to exercise. It will helps me feel like a normal person again. I found myself going back and doing everything in my post “Turning Stress to Happiness.”
  2. When I have the slightest inkling of motivation, roll with it. I was astounded by how much I could get done in a short amount of time and how good it will made me feel.
  3. I identified areas where I was feeling overwhelmed. Then did something about it. Here’s where I felt burdened and have been seeking Godly wisdom.
    • Managing the home – Go minimalist with me! Going minimalist can help cut what is sucking life out of you, and make more time for enjoying what’s important. I’ve been listening to The Purpose Show Podcast (audio) – it is soooo good! Start with episode 1.
    • Parenting – I’m re-reading my favorite parenting book for the millionth time. Its my only go-to book of Biblical parenting advise when I need help. To Train Up a Child by Michael and Debi Pearl.
    • Marriage – I’m also re-reading my favorite marriage book for wives and soaking it up. Created to be His Help Meet by Debi Pearl.
  4. Listen to encouraging Bible teaching. This always helps me. Joyce Meyer is of course my favorite, I love how she teaches the Bible and tells it like it is. I need that. Click here for the Joyce Meyer TV video podcast.

Survival mode is just that…just surviving. It takes time, but you will get through it. It has been a wake-up call for areas of my life that needed attention.

Like the butterfly, your cocoon can pop along an area of weakness and lead to new life, if you let it.

Turning our areas of weakness over to the Lord and seeking His wisdom is truly the way that God intended it to be. Through this process, the Holy Spirit can fill us with the supernatural power and strength of Christ Jesus to live a different way…in victory. Let this verse sink in and bring you new life like it has for me.

“My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Cor 12:9-10)

Let’s spread our wings again. You can do this!


Photos sourced from: www.learner.org and www.thebutterflysite.com


GG · January 14, 2018 at 8:03 am

I love reading your blog. You are an inspiration.

    Briana · January 19, 2018 at 2:15 am

    Awwww thank you GG! Thank you for being so supportive of me with this! I appreciate it SO much! I love you!

Tina · January 17, 2018 at 2:04 am

I have been stuck in survival mode for over four years now (since being diagnosed with Lupus/losing my job shortly after) and I’ve been struggling with feelings of worthlessness because of it. I really needed to read these words of encouragement today. Thank you for your transparency in sharing! I’m glad to have stumbled upon your blog today.

    Briana · January 19, 2018 at 2:23 am

    Oh Tina – I feel for you! My heart goes out to you. Health challenges are so difficult, and then losing your job on top of it. I can understand how crushing and exhausting it would feel, and how a person could become stuck under it, just barely surviving. I wish I could give you a big hug. Nothing is too big for God. He loves you so much. His ways are hard to understand – so often I cannot, but there is such freedom in relinquishing our struggles to Him and seeing how He gets us through. I will be praying for you! God bless you, dear one.

Joy · January 18, 2018 at 8:13 pm

Hi Briana! Remembering God’s grace is sufficient is important everyday; but especially when we’re going through a tough time. Thanks for sharing your heart and these wonderful tips for encouragement. Your neighbor at #RaRa!

    Briana · January 19, 2018 at 3:17 am

    Hi Joy! How good to get your comment! You are so right. God’s grace is sufficient. That is been so apparent to me recently. Sometimes when you’re in the middle of tough times it is hard to see. As I begin to see those tough times with some perspective, it teaches me that He was there all the while, drawing me nearer to Him. He is so good!
    Your comment is an encouragement to me, thank you!

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